Hey good news, I may be able to go home tuesday! Yay I can see my baby boy. I miss him so much.

I had to have another magnesium treatment... when my magnesium drops it affects my heart rhythm... thats what they think all this feelings have been with my heart.

I got the heart monitor off today... another step in the right direction, still have the iv site for the antibiotics.

I had full liquids today- which means; milk, cream soups, sherbet and pudding. All of them were kinda nasty but hey it was food. I ate most of it.

Tomorrow I maybe getting regular food but low fat... thats not a problem.

I can't believe I am thinking about food to eat and purge... I shouldn't be... but all I can think about is eating. And if I binge I will have to purge and right now I think if I am around any amount of food by myself I will binge.

I am scared what the scale will say... I am disgusting. I see the difference from the fluids they gave me... and the shots in the arm muscles made my upper arms swollen... my upper left arm is almost double its size. Disgusting.
Alright thats it. luv