sorry i havn't written on here in a while...
i am nervous right now... i have my surgery tomorrow... I had a nightmare this morning... did not sleep well last night... taking a sleeping pill tonight... I have to be at the hospital at 6:30 am... the surgery is scheduled for 8 am...
less than 12 hours away...

I have been purging a little less... my weight has shown that I should not stop purging... I am up to 161... I WILL NOT let it stay this high... I doubt I will be purging much after the surgery but I will have to be very strict on what I eat then.

alright i love you laila... shannon if you read this i love you too <3