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Uggg I feel like crap today, I dont know why... I am totally obsessed with insane thoughts of how fat I have become. I NEED to lose some serious weight. I think I need to stop coming over to my sisters so much. I eat too much here.
I was getting dressed the other day and my pants were really tight, I was freaking out, I had yet to do laundry so I didnt have any others to wear. I dont understand the amount of weight I have gained.

I am not as hungry and I am not purging as much. I think I eat 1-2 meals a day. The caloric content always under 2000 (a normal person needs 3500 extra to gain) so seriously me eating 1500 should not have caused this drastic change.

I need to get back to the lower 130's .

Christmas is close, tomorrow is christmas eve. I wish it would be past already.

I came to my sisters to be around people, I have been alone almost all day. my nephew was around for a few hours but he was busy doing things. I cleaned some, swept, mopped, dishes (even though I HATE), uggg I just want to sleep. Go home and sleep and lose weight.

Night my loves,
~Kristi
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