hey, just thought i would stop by... I was over at my sisters... thursday night i kinda freaked out some... couldn't calm myself... couldn't stop crying... i needed to be around people... my thoughts were not good...

I ended up going over to my sisters... after I had taken a bit of meds (not to hurt but to help me sleep, and not an overdose) but I couldn't calm myself and I took a couple pills to calm me.

my sister sent my niece over to pick me up, didn't tell me she was coming but it ended ok.

my niece is being a b*tch though... I am sorry I was in the hospital and i had to buy new food because my foods spoiled... I could have given you the $20 but that means I would be going without food and I needed special foods because I now cannot eat all that is still good because my gallbladder is messed up.

Arrggg she is so aggravating... she doesn't even pay the bill, my sister has been, she understands, I will pay it on the 1st, i was also expecting a little more income but that didn't come through... I am sorry. ugggg

If I actually used the phone as much as I pay her, I wouldn't complain as much but seriously I pay the same amount as my nephew and I can't use the internet or facebook or any mobile stuff on it. it is ridiculus. Texting and sometimes calling... but calling people i have to be careful.

ugg oh well

my weight is gross... i put on like 1 pound since getting out of the hospital... disgusting.
my energy is getting back to normal... i have yet to really go walk yet though... i have done a little when going to the pharmacy or the store... but no more than 4 miles.... at a time... blah. i am so fat.

alright this is just a big blob of blah sorry.... im tired and ornery can't really figure out my mood... its just messed luv ya girls