my legs are huge, i have so much extra skin and fat on my thighs, if you look you can see the actual leg and then the skin and fat hang down.

They are just so disgusting

Ribs and hips... kinda

Pretty boy

uggg so i feel gross... im fat, im always fat... icck

i get money tomorrow... yay!

i bp'd a little bit ago and the food made me nauseous... i dont like that, i want to try to enjoy the food... but i just feel so gross... i guess that is a sign that i should have never eaten. im fat

ummm weight 125.6 Still! well at least it is not up

im tired... i just wanted to go lay down after purging... but i came out to the living room and am using the computer (obviously because I am posting)

I took a bunch of body pics the last week, so im resizing and stuff I might add some later.

it was really warm today, got up to 91, Yay! but very muggy. tomorrow it is supposed to be around 80

i just want to sleep... uggg

uggg i just lost everything i typed... so here I go again

today has been a long day...

lots of food

I purged once at my parents and didnt eat anymore after.

I got home about 2 hours ago and ate the leftovers and just purged...
pre-purge 135.6, post purge 127.4

uggg i feel so fat

I will have time tomorrow to read through journals and post more...
I am really tired.
night

hey, damage weight wise from yesterday 125.6, up .2 but sometimes actually absorbed food might affect my weight for days. I took 1 lax last night, has not worked yet... might have to take another 1 tonight.

It is nice and warm today, about 75 right now... its supposed to get in the mid 80s.

alright i didnt have much to say right now just wanted to post a little before I go to my dads party.

Ugg I feel so utterly disgusting...

I am so NAUSEOUS blech... I purged when I got home... but I couldnt when at my sisters. I was 133.8 before and after 127.6, uggg thats is an end of day weight... I just ate a piece of bread because I am so nauseous.

A bad thunderstorm is coming through so I will make this short, I dont like the computer on with this much lightening. Its like several times a minute right now and its not raining yet. Thundering for the last 10 minutes.

Alright so weight this morning was 125.4, but I think it would have been lower if I did it at my regular time. Tomorrow is going to be early as well, I am gonna hold off measurements till maybe tuesday.

I am taking 1 lax tonight... hopefully it will help a little with going yet not make tomorrows party unbearable. I WILL purge tomorrow at the party. It is at my parents house... it is kinda sucky because their bathroom does not have a lock though... I just have to be careful.

NO body said anything about my weight today, THANK GOD! I was so scared of getting nagged at. I noticed my collarbones so much at the restaurant (they had mirrors on the wall).

Alright weather is worse... i will write tomorrow, probably late again.

hey short post
weight today was 125.4

Im getting close to finishing my shirt. got it all sewed together and im doing the edging now.

today was okay... 2 bps...

tomorrow I have to go with my parents to some baby christening thing of their neighbors. I have to go because I have to be at the dinner on the way home. A dinner for my moms birthday. They are picking me up at 9:30 am UGGGGG if it were not for my moms birthday I would not be going.

Who know what eating will be like tomorrow... 9:30 to dinner time is a long time for my parents and brother to go without eating so it is likely we will somewhere.

alright i just wanted to drop by before i head off to bed... i need to sleep before tomorrow

sorry i didnt post yesterday,
weight is up again UGGGG 125.8 I think it is because at 3 am last night I woke up and ate 3 hard boiled eggs and a can of green beans. I know I purged but I dont remember rinsing. Really sucks.

I worked for my friend last night... I spent like 10 minutes when I was almost done pulling up some plants for her, it was raining some, not heavy but I still got really wet. Then we ate dinner (i had a salad with some chicken) and she brought me home about 8:30pm. Last night when trying to go to sleep my nose is stuffy and runny at the same time... today my sinus's in my cheekbones hurt and my nose is still stuffy and runny... Ugg I think being out in the rain may have made me sick... Hopefully it just stays with my nose and sinus's and that it disappears soon.

I finished the sleeve on the shirt I am crocheting... I am sewing the pieces together now... then I just have to do the edging. Hope I finish it soon. I will definitely take a picture when it is done.

I got $5 from my friend last night... bought 2 dozen eggs and 3 loafs of bread. all that might make me make it till the 1st.

made the soup that I made the other day... cream of broccoli soup, chicken, corn, potatoes, peas and a little seasoning. made some biscuit mix and ate all that.

purged... pre-purge 135.0, post purge 126.8

i guess that is it for now...