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Hey my dears... I am not sure what to write... I am rather blah.
I ate and purged twice... ICK... I want to eat more because I am hungry but I dont have much food or money... I hate this part of my life.

I gained .4 this morning... UGGGG I was so pissed!

I left a message for my case worker yesterday because my therapist told me to talk to her about treatment stuff (NYP). She did call me back at 2 pm but I was not in the apartment (I did 3 loads of laundry today)... So I called her back and left a message. On the message she left me she said she was going to be at work for several more hours and she would be in the office. Well its way past the workday now so I dont know what happened... I guess I will talk to her next week.

Is it worth even trying to go to NYP? I want to be better to move in with Shannon. But I really am not sick enough to need IP... I dont really think Centre Syracuse is the right answer for me.

I sent an application to the 'freed' organization to see if they could help me finachially with a different treatment place... I was hoping something like Sol Stone http://www.solstonecenter.com/

I dont know though... if I want to get better like I think I do why cant I just do it? I still act on my thoughts... or not even thoughts... I just act.

I am just so tired of everything.
HUGZ
~Kristi
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