Psychocats Journey

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Round and Round I go, Where do I stop? I dont know

Ehhgg... I am soo crappy... Just finished eating and purging... now im eating a salad so i dont get so shaky and eat more bad stuff and then have to purge again.

Uggg I feel like my days are just repeats... everyday the same thing over and over... I dont change things though. Eat, purge, eat, purge, sleep, therapy, eat, purge, ohh and a whole bunch of weighings.

On the plus side I was 131.4 today and I didnt even sleep that much last night... hmmm so if I slept like I wanted I might of been lower.

I forgot that I have a doctors appointment tomorrow... Wednesday is not free, I see my case manager at 11:30 and then have to be at the doctors at 3:45. i have lost like 2-3 lbs since my last appointment... I am not worried... shes not going to do anything, I am fine, Yeah I dont like purging and I get scared about the ed but ehh Im fine.

I was thinking of taking some more pictures of myself... I dont know... sometimes I see something I like but then it just fades into Fat... Ugg so I wish I could just see what I want.

hmm well I dont really have much else to say right now... HUGZ
~Kristi
=^..^=

1 comment:

Laila said...

hey hun.

i'm all in for pics ;)

you should get a job...get some rutines in your life..it actually make things a bit better..you get your focus on something else, not only at food....

love you darling <3