Thinking about treatment and the WEATHER!!!!!

Hey my Ladies!! Yeah I think both of you are now co-authors... I wasnt sure how to fix the comment thing so I did that... then fixed the comment thing... I can have you removed if you want let me know. I dont mind having you as co-authors, you wont really write your own stuff here too much but it gives you the option??? If you want it.

Just let me know if you want to be removed from that aspect. Not a problem (unless I cant figure out how to do that lol).

Hmmm well not too much new, I got the application for the apartment, I filled it out, gonna mail it to Shannon tomorrow, then she can mail it to the property owners. (dont worry sending a stamped envelope so you dont have to).

I had therapy today... it went better than tuesday. Last week when I went a little crazy and emailed Centre Syracuse I didnt hear anything back from them till tuesday evening... I thought they wouldnt be able to help so I just was not pressuring it too much. Well I have an evaluation with them on the phone tomorrow. I am almost certain I am not going to go there though. I talked to my therapist about going to New York Presbytarian. She didnt object but didnt see what could really be gained because I have done the program before.

I dont know I feel like I am grabbing at straws... but none of them fit. Is it worth it? Can they help me this time? I wanna stop purging, I am tired of being sick, I dont want to weigh more but I do want to have a life not consumed by my ed.

Does that mean I should try again? Shouldnt I be able to do it myself if I want it? If I cant do it then I obviously dont want to get better bad enough? I dont know. I know I may always have certain feelings about how I look or feel about myself. I may just have to learn to accept them.

My therapist told me to talk to my case manager to see if NY Presbytarian is even an option. If I fit the criteria to even go. I think I do but who knows.

I was 134.0 this morning... not bad but not good... I seriously thought it was going to be like 137 or higher... I can NEVER tell anymore.
I want to get better, especially for when I move... I want to have fun, not be sick.

Its 37 degrees out right now... uggg and its only 4:30 pm its gonna be so COLD tonight... Like a few hours from here they could get a lot of snow tonight... along the NY/PA border area may get 6-9 inches!!! Ohh my I dont like this one bit!!!

 ICK!!! Thankfully I am up in the white area... Shannon I believe is almost inbetween Elmira & Binghamton Which Elmira has a Winter Weather Advisory, and Binghamton has a Winter Storm Watch... Ohh dear is it cold. YUK YUK YUK!!!

Hmmm I wish I lived somewhere in these red areas:
80-90 degrees, SUN hmmm nice!!!
 
Okay so I have rambled on long enough... sorry for the weather obsession today lol.
HUGZ (& hot chocolate)
~Kristi
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