I have been putting off writing... Ive messed up... whats new... 3 bad days... I need to get back on track.
I weighed myself the other day and it is up... What the heck... why does trying to eat better mean weight gain?
I hate this... why is getting better so hard... being sick was so easy for so long, i mean yeah there were times when it was difficult but it was just easier to let myself be sick.
I dont know I just wish it was easier... if eating better and not purging is whats best then why is it so hard...
in other news, my mom is out of the hospital, she got out Wednesday night. She has to do her own IV antibiotics... but she is walking somewhat better and is using a walker to get around.
alright gotta get back on track.. night
1 comment:
your body is messed up after all this years with an Ed,and will hang on to every calorie you give it,but that will start to change when you get into a routine,when your body get food and you keep it down. Your weight will be more stable as long as your body feel "safe" and sure you keep the food..
Bad days will come my love,try to focus on the good days you have,they count more...
glad to hear things seems to get better for your mom,hope it continues this way :)
love you <3
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