hmmm down 2 more pounds still well into the 190s yuk... I will not consider any weight lost till im in the 180s then i know its a little more likely to stay

I had 2 bowls of cereal... felt like a binge... purged... blah... thats it for today no more purging...
I had some orange juice... not sure about dinner or anything yet

last night I ended up having a yogurt and a plum, talk about greedy...

I have 1 more plum and 3 kiwis I have to eat soon though they are going to go bad, those are good foods I dont want to waste...

I have not exercised yet today... I am not feeling it... I want to go crawl back into bed... I am cold even though it is warmish here... Doesnt help my hair is wet... just showered...

I hate how skuzzy I get at times... okay i dont know if that is a word but it sounds like one to me. lol
I will go days without showering... thankfully most of the time I am not doing much but it is like I disgust myself enough already... why try...
But then if I go out to an appointment I try really hard to look okay, I hope to 'fool' whoever I am seeing that I am not a disgusting fat cow... I dont think I succeed but at least I can tell myself I try

At least if Tiger judges me he doesnt do it to where I know... no telling me I eat too much (quite the opposite he always wants the food lol), no hissing if he sees me in the mirror or when I get dressed... Although he likes to sit on my chest in the middle of the night I dont think it is because it is nice and 'cushioned' its because mommy will always wake up with a 16 pound weight on her chest. He is the loveliest guy I know lol

uggg tomorrow is monday measurements... scared! hope nothing went up... I have to do them first thing in the morning... will post them later, i have an appointment and work at the library...fun