hey loves...
152.4 down a tiny bit...
I walked 10.74 miles... made up for some of yesterdays i didnt do.

my therapist appointment went ok.. she thought it would be a good idea to see the nutritionist. now i have to wait for the referral from my doctor

uggg i am so tired right now... blah!
ate and purged 2 times today and i still want to eat. YUK

hmmm well i guess that is it...
ohh laila no none of my medications are stimulants that could make my heart race like that. I hadnt any caffiene either. so I do think it was the stress of purging... and possibly dehydration

love you ladies
~Kristi
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hey... uggg ok umm not bad weight wise... down a little... 152.8
I just ate and purged... blah

while purging and a little after while washing I got my heart rate going to the 180s, I would take breaths and stop and just hang my head over the sink but my heart rate wouldnt go down.

so after washing I went to the bathroom... got my heart rate down to the 140s... but immediately getting up and doing my final weigh in after purging and my heart rate went back up to the high 170s... went and got a small drink of G2 gatorade... heart rate still going fast...

usually my sitting heart rate is 65-75 right now just sitting at the couch it is 107... and I am shaky as all hell...

I have been so blah and tired today... Went to the store 2 times... first time I was really good not buying a lot of crap...  but then i went to the cheaper store and bought crap, 5 hours later... blah

I have therapy tomorrow... and an appointment with Kristina...

I was a lazy fat cow today...only walked 2.68 miles... my legs are so weak from the biking yesterday... I havnt biked in AGES! COW COW COW....

uggg alright I am going to go... i think i need to lay down my heart is still going pretty fast...
Luvs
~Kristi
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Hey...
The kids have gone home... I took them swimming but of course the information they had on the school website was not updated and swimming times were changed. The kids were upset so I ended up taking them to the park... it started sprinkling so they got a little wet too! lol

I spent the money that I was going to use for swimming and bought the kids ice cream.

my apartment is a MESS... i have to seriously clean tomorrow... the kids do not pick up after themselves very well.

Kayla has her training wheels off her bike... We were leaving the ice cream place (Renee their mom) was taking Nick and Kay was going to ride her bike back to my place. Renee was pulling out of the driveway and was also trying to watch Kayla ride her bike and Renee hit the curb and popped her tire. Right in the middle of town... infront of burger king, tim hortons... family dollar... and subway... not a good place to get a flat tire. So Kayla and I went over and I watched Renee change a tire... Nick and Kayla 'helped' as much as they could.... The police came to see if we needed help but then he just stood there as Renee was trying to take the flat tire off the car... struggling... not helping... stupid Albion police lol

Ummm so I wasnt going to walk because I bike rode and was going to swim... but the kids ended up leaving at like 6 pm... after about 20 minutes I was like I NEED to go walk... so I did... a different way because I was afraid to go too far and get stuck walking in the dark. I did 5.73 miles... not great but it is something and I did bike ride so that was exercise too My heart rate monitor says I burned over 3000 calories already...

Ummm ate and purged once... I should have purged 2 times though... I was going to purge the ice cream but when I was on the way home that is when Renee got the flat tire so by the time I got home it was about an hour and a half later...
Before my walk I ate... leftover homemade pizza (stuffed crust!) and some cookies.... that is what I purged...

I kept getting light headed and dizzy walking so on my way back I bought some G2 gatorade... perhaps I need the electrolytes... cant hurt...

I am getting ready to head off to my room and get comfy in bed... perhaps read or play my DSi... Make some popcorn...
Alright Loves! Night!
~Kristi
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Hey sorry i havnt posted in a few days...
I have Nick and Kayla over... they spent the night... I am taking them to the school to go swimming today. It is almost 80 degrees and its not even 11 am. It might rain later...

So today is the first... I added up my walking last night. I made the 150 miles... I actually did 161.67 miles... almost 30 miles more than last month. I burned with the pedometer 13,892 calories... that is with the pedometer measuring just the walking... with the heart rate monitor... during the times I wore it... 52,964 and 6436 fat burned.

i should look up more about fat burned... see how much energy it takes to burn it

I was 154.6 today... not sure how that happen but i am not complaining

I dont really get to walk today because I have the kids but perhaps I will burn calories swimming... I dont do laps or anything just gonna play with the kids...

Ate and purged 2 times yesterday... only kept some grapes... Didnt even eat POPCORN! wow a first in awhile.

hmmm not sure what else right now... gotta go get dressed and what not to play with the kids.
HUGZ
~Kristi
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Ahh hey Loves...
Laila, yes I do weigh myself at night otherwise I dont see the weight go down.

I walked a little... 8.04 miles...  I overdrafted my bank account... and bought a couple food things... spent 7 dollars...

ate and purged...

getting ready to go to bed...

i have been thinking... what good does that really do for me 'i know' but I was thinking of maybe getting fake nails to see if it would help me decrease my purging.... but then when the other night I purged and got some blood and that didn't stop me from purging then why would fake nails? It would only potentially make it more dangerous.

How do I stop purging?  I know I should eat more... i can't do that without purging.... so there I am stuck

I know logically if I eat 3 times a day... space it out... eat snacks... I wont eat as much at once... how do I get myself to physically put that into action. I try but then cant stick with it.

I dont know... perhaps I am just supposed to be this way... like i was thinking last night how yes I like to walk but I hate my demands on it... my rules... i want it to just be relaxing.

I dont know too much thinking right now...
~Kristi
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hey... yeah Laila I have Fat days... to me thats all I have...

I was 156.4 today... but after my walk i was 155.2 BUT now at the end of the day I am 160.2 BLAH!!!!!!!

I walked 7.98 miles... not bad but not good...

i guess this was just a short thing... im heading off to bed... night my loves
~Kristi
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uggg blah blah... I am so FAT... Fatty mc fat ass... blah
I was 157.6 this morning BLAH

I got off my arse and walked today... 8.97 miles... uggg should have done more... always should do more.

Whats new... i am hungry... ahh thats not new... no money till friday... trying to keep my mind still with not thinking about the crazy amounts of food i want to buy.

I skipped therapy today... i can do it once in awhile... ugg im tired... time to go