Ahh hey Loves...
Laila, yes I do weigh myself at night otherwise I dont see the weight go down.

I walked a little... 8.04 miles...  I overdrafted my bank account... and bought a couple food things... spent 7 dollars...

ate and purged...

getting ready to go to bed...

i have been thinking... what good does that really do for me 'i know' but I was thinking of maybe getting fake nails to see if it would help me decrease my purging.... but then when the other night I purged and got some blood and that didn't stop me from purging then why would fake nails? It would only potentially make it more dangerous.

How do I stop purging?  I know I should eat more... i can't do that without purging.... so there I am stuck

I know logically if I eat 3 times a day... space it out... eat snacks... I wont eat as much at once... how do I get myself to physically put that into action. I try but then cant stick with it.

I dont know... perhaps I am just supposed to be this way... like i was thinking last night how yes I like to walk but I hate my demands on it... my rules... i want it to just be relaxing.

I dont know too much thinking right now...
~Kristi
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