uggg my fatness is smothering me... I wish for it to stop consuming my body and get the hell over with it and go after my brain, make it not worry... make it stupid and not care.

I am so tired right now... last night was crap sleeping.. fricken neighbor apartment person Snores so fricken loud I can HEAR it right through my walls... I moved my bed at like1 am hoping it could help me sleep... still heard the f*n neighbor. I hit the walls a couple times but the person did not wake. I do not know if it is a girl or boy, whichever is a HORRID snorer. UGGGGg

I failed to weigh myself today, so afraid to see the over consuming fat in actual numbers. I MUST weigh myself tomorrow though. Enough with the fear of this fat... I need to acknowledge how gross I am... CHANGE it.

I walked... my legs felt like they would fall off... so heavy... but I only did 7.04 miles... Kept my heart rate up the whole time so that was good... but it is still not enough... i drank a iced cappuccino... not worth the calories

uggg i have no idea even how to think appropriately right this second... i am like stupid brained and just plain FAT... uggg CRAP PERSON I AM!

I need to sleep... real sleep... then walk... dont stop... need to stop eating too... I eat and purge, enough though, i cant keep it so cant eat it. i have to stop. I keep so little its not worth it... I must walk more... and more... i am too fat to sit on my ass... but that is what i do... vegetate and get fatter

enough
~Kristi
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