Hey Girls... is my blog acting up? comments wise?
I hope everything is going alright... I have been a little bit of a mess... just like blah...
I am out of money and food... I hate this...
I have like a major headache too. I did not sleep very well last night too. I slept for 2 hours then was up till 5 and then didnt sleep well... I was awake every hour... I had to be up and out of the house at 9 so not much sleep.
At least not as much as my body normally needs.
Umm my weight? For not very much sleep and getting up early I was 132.6 and with me not having much food and not really having anything to purge I might gain but then again I might lose... who knows?
I just want to sleep .... and sleep ohh and sleep some more.
I cried too much today... I had a crappy psychiatrist appointment but when I talked to my therapist later she said I should have tried to explain myself better to my psychiatrist. Maybe things would change if I told him more... I try talking to him but he just dismisses me. When he changes my meds and I ask him what it does, what are the side effects he tells me to look it up on the internet.
AND my therapist wonders why I find it so hard to talk to him.
On top of that my case manager picked me up from my psychiatrist appointment and earlier this week she said we could go for lunch because she was going to be hungry after her meeting. I planned on eating with her... and without me having much food in the house I was like okay so I will have at least one meal today... cool... BUT then she didn't ask me about eating and she had to stop at the store and said I could stay in the car and relax so I did... She came out with food and finished eating without saying ANYTHING to me... was she trying to be nice to my eating disorder and think I didnt want to eat? Ugggg I didnt have any money anyway so I couldnt get anything... if she was to get something for me she could have used case management money to pay for it.... ehhgg ohh well
it just really annoyed me... I was hungry... I dont like being hungry and not having my control over it.
Uggg I have to stop and get off the computer now... my head is really killing me. Uggggg
HUGZ ladies, luv ya
~Kristi
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1 comment:
i know what you mean hun...i dont have any money eighter now..and that is just a pain in the ars when you suffer from bulimia..You therapist should have know better then act the way she did...wtf is wrong with her??!!
sending you lots of hugs my dear one <3
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