Ehhhggg Sorry ladies, you dont have to read this... its just complaining
I feel so tired of everything... my therapist said that i have to really want to get better to change something. I thought I wanted to get better but who knows... Maybe my therapist knows me better.
I still act on my thoughts so obviously I am just crazy. I know that it is hurting me in the long run. I am just trying to get by right now though.
I am just not sure if i am gonna be okay... I dont want to be sick... I hate this...
What about moving? I want to move so bad... like now... is it crazy? No I dont think so... I dont know what to do anymore though... There is like nothing out there.... I want things to be right... perfect
are things ever going to be perfect though?
is life ever just the way you want it?
what if things dont happen? Am I getting my hopes up to move? I want to so bad but is it like a sign or something that we can not find a place? does that mean we shouldnt? I hate this... I want to so BAD... maybe I want it more than its logical? does that make sense (no not really to me either)
Nothing is making sense right this second... I need to sleep...
If you did happen to read this... just dismiss it... ignore all my confusing ramblings
1 comment:
hey hun.
rant as much as you want, its your blog.
i know what your therapist mean, i struggle with the same thing as you, i'm not motivated at all, and i wonder if i will ever get out of this shit. Its so hard to let go...
i'm right here with you sweetheart!
love you <3
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