Hey ladies,
I am thinking of doing the low carb/ atkins thing. I am so disgusted with myself and my body. I weigh as much now as when I got out of treatment last january. It is disgusting. Why the heck has this happened? I dont think I am binging I eat once a day, but I stopped purging for a few weeks. I just purged tonight though. I wasnt going to but I wanted to finish the higher carb things in the apartment so when I start my new diet I wont have the easy access to fail.
But purging tonight was good for a little bit but then my muscles in my legs wouldnt stop shaking, I thought maybe my bloodsugar had dropped, I was lightheaded and shaky and nautious. So I got some light and fit yogurt and ate a couple of spoonfuls of it my legs just shaking away while I was standing. I thought I was going to fall over lol.
The severe shaking has stopped. I really need to not purge. I am not sure how long to give the atkins diet though... they say you lose in the first 2 weeks generally but if I start to gain I cant continue. I have gained enough already. I think my body is revenging me (umm like punishing me?)
I was searching online for airfare to Norway and I found a cheaper on for $534 I thought okay I could try to save that, then I clicked on it for more information and the Taxes and fees cost another $433 Jeez! uggggg stupid MONEY!!!!!!
Alright I am freezing, I am going to go hibernate in bed. and TRY to get warm.
HUGZ
~Kristi
=^..^=
1 comment:
hey hun.
i really hope atkins will work for you, and dont make you gain, cause that is really frustrating!!
I guess you had a low blodsugar yesterday too,the body starts to react when somethings is wrong anyway..
holy cwap, the taxes are really high..you have to be a millioner the get somewhere...djjeee
Hope you are feeling a bit better today.
Nice talking to you last night :)
love you <3
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