Psychocats Journey

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

sleep...eat...purge...eat...sleep

I have been stuck... whats new...  I didnt eat anything yesterday till 8pm I wasnt going to eat then but I found myself just eating. I slept. and slept... I read for 2 hours last night and went back to bed. I am so tired lately. I had another nightmare about Tiger. I wish those would stop.

So I figured since I slept quite a bit yesterday, I would get up earlier today... I woke up at 7 am because of Tiger but laid back down, but then I was stuck, I just couldnt get out of bed. My father called at 4 pm and wanted to come over because he left for class too early and didnt want to drive back home. So I was up then... I ate and purged once, I am hungry but dont have a lot of choices for food...

I did eat and keep 2 turkey burgers with a little ketchup.
My weight has been stuck  for awhile now.still 156

Ifound a cheap treadmill online... 150 yeah its cheap it is manual too so I can really work myself to work it. Maybe next month... I dont have the money but I can take it out of my food budget. I dont want to eat all that much anyway. I wish my sister never got rid of my exercise bike... that cost 90 jeez she didnt even ask. just gave it away or threw it out, she doesnt remember.

I am so tired... what the heck am I supposed to do? I keep maybe 400 calories aday in... what? I purge anything too caloric. Even if I ate nothing I doubt I would lose weight. It is really pissing me off. I am TOO FAT!!!

I need to lose 25 lbs like now!
Night ladies
~Kristi
=^..^=

1 comment:

Laila said...

hey hun.

your days sounds like mine...i'm just so exhausted now, all i wanna do is sleep..but of course i have to work, but i'm just so tired when i get home..all i do is bp..

hate when your on a plateau..its so frustrating...but hopefully you will see some changes soon tho my love.

hang in there.

love you
xxx