hmm well today was uggg my niece asked me to watch her boyfriends 2 kids because she had to go somewhere and couldnt take them... so I agreed... I had to be up at 8 ugg... at that time my weight was a double ugg... so I had some orange juice and we watched tv...

Man was it HARD to make the kids lunch... I wanted to eat too.. Ugg NO, NO NO cannot eat. I have to go back to bed after they leave and sleep the rest of the time I usually sleep and then weigh myself... then I can eat something. I canceled my appointment with my case worker.

The boys left at about 1, I crashed shortly there after slept for about 5 hours. I got up and weighed myself... ugg made it to my weight i was yesterday... BLAH at least I didnt gain. I would have lost if I didnt mess up my schedule... ugg I SO DO NOT want the next few days to happen... my sleep and eating are gonna be all messed up... my weightloss is going to be so messed up. uggg I swear gaining is going to piss me off, it is so easy for my body to gain and what if I cant purge everything one time or something uggg I am going to try to not eat but that is harder when I am away from home.

I probably wont post here till thursday night or friday or something... friday I have to work for my friend and then we are going christmas shopping. Saturday my sister asked me to go down and see her mother with her... we will see if she still wants me... so my 1st day back to normal is sunday and then WHAM its MONDAY! measurement day and an up early day, and i have to be up early tuesday Damn, this is really frustrating me