well good news or frustrating news...

frustrating news- I was up 5 hours earlier than normal and had to weigh myself for the day... so not as good.... I weighed myself when I got home but I had the days water and orange juice... not lower than the morning... so maybe tomorrow my weight will cooperate

good news... monday measurements... be warned they are still disgusting!
Surprisingly I lost 6 inches total this week! wow... im stupdified lol dont know how about 8 pounds lost will do that, perhaps its the little bits of exercise
here are my measurements old number if different in parenthesis
Hip-44 (46)
LR Hip- 40
Waist-34 (36)
Breasts-40
Neck-13 (14)
R. Thigh-25
L. Thigh-24
R. Upper arm-11 (11.5)
L. Upper arm 11.5 (12)
R. wrist-6
L. wrist-6

well not really sure whats wrong with me today... was walking home and was thinking about food... blah... stop and bought a few things... not good... im eating some right now... yuk... gonna have to purge ugg

I talked to my therapist today... fun... actually crying... i know the wanting and needing to purge more is a little about wanting to get rid of the hurt feelings over mark... i just wish i knew how to do that and not be detrimental to myself... uggg yeah right...
I guess I have decided to be just friends with mark until or if he ever comes back around, give him the space... let my heart not care so much so it wont hurt so much... I guess im not totally giving up but I know right now things are not working for him, if he would tell he that would make it easier but he wont

Ahhggg i turned my heat on to 65 oh my gosh it feels so good! I will only keep it on for a couple of hours but I just want to keep my hands over the wall register... im still covered in 3 blankets lol