I dont know what I am doing, I was looking through a blog, just then was thinking about my old friend Brent. I found his video again. It makes me so sad but I feel compelled to watch it over and over. I know I didnt know him as well as other people have but for people to understand what he meant/means to me is pretty much impossible.
I feel like crap, His parents were/are so nice to me, I shut them out. I need to talk to her (his mom) Let her know I still am around, that she still matters.
I went all day yesterday doing well, today yeah not so much. I ate and purged twice but I think I will again. I just broke in with the carbs today.
I made it yesterday with 12 net carbs which is good but it was close to 1000 calories. Which was DISGUSTING. But I went from 161 to 157.8? ?? Not sure if it is real or not. I shall do the low carb thing again tomorrow. Try for at least 2 days this time, I did make it 1 full day. I read that if you can go 3 days without a lot of carbs you wont crave them as much, I think if that is true it is logically for all physiological cravings, not the emotional.
Alright I need to go get warm again, it is 3.8 degrees here, the wind chill is a -8 degrees
I love you girls
~Kristi
=^..^=
1 comment:
hey love
i dont remember Brett...was that the guy you were seing?
Its not easy to keep up with atkins, it seems like you think more about carbs when you know you cant have any...but i really hope you can make it huni..stay strong! I made it thrue 14 days before i gave in...but as i told you, i gained tho...wtf? how can you gain when you dont eat carbs??? i dont understand it!!! crazy body!!!
Hope you make it,and manage to stay with it.
Love you very much sweetie
hugs
xxx
ps: OMG..the password i have to write before post the message for you here is...hold on...:miana...wtf...LOL..ok, just had to tell you..
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