another day is here... weight 178.0 so close to before christmas weight... but its down .6 from yesterday... need to lose .2 to get to pre christmas weight...
I almost freaked last night... I was laying down, feeling my fat... pressing on fat, in my stomach... feeling the grossness... then i could feel my intestines on the left side,,, all hard... they were full of CRAP! from christmas! EWWWW UGGG
I pressed and pushed and pinched and everything till i was hurting... I couldnt make it move much... so I took a regular dose of lax... just 2 pills...
i didnt feel anything, no cramps no nothing... and man i barely went, nothing like going with lax, was all hard... part of me wants to take enough lax to make sure im empty... CANT have this in me...
its okay when I dont eat enough to poo but seriously I FELT it, I know I got rid of some of it but uggg
i DONT want to get back to lax, they are a problem... i just dont want all the crap in me

my friend is coming today... we are exchanging gifts... and getting coffee...

my niece got a bigger bed and she let me have her full bed... yay! I can lay diagonally and not have my feet hang off! WOOHOO! (AND it gives tiger more room, he is a bed hog, i usually have about a foot of the end of the bed on the left side... all the rest is his...lol)

alright gotta see about getting ready