its still snowing... schools were closed up here... havnt gone outside to see how much we have but I have to get the mail sometime and I Should take out the garbage...but its REALLY cold out, I will write if i decide to venture out

my weight... I dont know what the frick is going on... im stalled... 182 AGAIN... uggg I HAVE to lose at LEAST 3 more pounds by christmas... if not 7... uggg

I ate some oatmeal a little while ago... hopefully it will keep me full a little bit so i dont have a day like yesterday... I ended up bping 4 times... Yikes!

I was up at 8:30 yesterday morning and didnt sleep at all during the day and I STILL could not fall asleep until almost 3 this morning... I was so frustrated... I HATE my sleep pattern right now...

uggg I have been thinking about food... A LOT... like almost more than usual... ick... pancakes... pizza... burritos (bean and cheese)... bagels with cream cheese... popcorn.... mashed potatoes and gravy... ice cream... ramen noodles... vegetable soup.... ummmm alll Binge foods...

what the heck is going on with me... cant handle the food stuff... cant start to bp more... 1 time a day is more than enough...

ahhh while i laid in bed trying to sleep last night i thought of something else to make kaylas doll... I can crochet her a hat, mittens and scarf! I gave her doll back but it should be relatively easy I think... hmmm I think I have some pink yarn Kayla will love... gotta find my crochet hooks... gosh if you saw my apartment you would know what a task that is

Ohh- yesterday... my case worker nor my therapist said anything of smells... so I dont think I smelled like vomit or too strong perfume... yay or they were just being nice and not saying about the perfume

alright thats it for right now...