well last night was a screw up... what else is new with me...
after my bp yesterday I was below my morning weight which like NEVER happens so I should have not eaten anything ELSE ... AT ALL... but I went shopping yesterday... it is extremely hard to resist when you have new foods you just picked out... uggg

so I bp'd again... 2 bagels with cream cheese and popcorn... not a lot... but damn it all... I was up a whole pound from my morning weight after purging... and rinsing... and purging again... it wouldnt go back down. FRICK! Just my LUCK.

I AM A FAT HORRENDOUS, HIDEOUS, FREAK... SO FRICKEN HUGE ITS DISGUSTING

FAT FAT FAT FAT!!!!!
COW COW COW!!!!!

 Okay that was last nights crap...
today... regular day for me... got up... weighed myself... down 1.2 pounds again! Wow whats going on? Hey Im not complaining, I am not doing anything different... so hmmm... 186 today... 2 more pounds and I will have lost 20 pounds since going back to MiaFriends YAY!!!

Talked to good friend today... I wish YOU well Shannon!

Went to the store picked up my medications and a couple food things I forgot... I am not sure what I am making for dinner tonight... pizza, tacos, or mashed potatoes and gravy... (dinner is my bp) I also have scones (because the store didnt have my blueberry muffins that I love... and some donuts that were on sale...)

Bought some Powerade Zero, I kept forgetting ... its a good thing to have when purging... and because it has no calories I drink that instead of G2 now

I had a yogurt and granola today...