just got home from our christmas party... it was okay... im tired... I got 2 pillows from my parents... I hate feeling disappointed with my christmas gifts but i do, I should just be happy but I dont know. Im stupid. I feel like a greedy inconsiderate little fatso... uggg
why do I have to deal with rude people and feel like im not worth really getting anything...

ehhhg weight this morning 176.4 alright... still a COW
i ate at the christmas party... couldnt purge till almost 3 hours later... after purging at home I was 176.8 but I think I will be higher tomorrow... I deserve it I am a PIG
I ate some ham, a little cauliflower (1 tbsp), 2tbsp sweet potato, 1/4 cup of scalloped potatoe, a roll, then later 3 small cookies, a cupcake, and a piece of pie... HIDEOUS FAT COW

uggg I HATE me right now
SO FAT