hey... i thought i would say hi... not much to say though... my referral for the nutritionist was denied... I am very frustrated... how is it when I need some help... not need it severely but need it none the less... can insurance deny. This is ridiculous. My brain is telling me i am not really that bad, sick, you know enough... I am not emaciated so I do not deserve the assistance. I should just accept that this is my life, i should just deal with it. this is how i am supposed to be, deserve to be.
Disgustingly fat and unable to control myself around food. or money to buy food.

DISGUSTINGLY FAT!

I dont know... i got these kind of nice texts from my case worker... I am shocked... I told her I was really frustrated with my insurance denying me... she said 'try to stay positive that the new medication will work and we will continue exploring other options.' 'i know u r frustrated but sometimes certain things dont work out for a reason. You never know what good things r in store for you! then 'i have faith in you. believe in yourself talk to your mirror like i taught you!!'
I could not believe the texts when i read them... things used to be so messed up with her. I lost trust in her when she didn't believe me about something really important... did not stand up for my rights when it is her job as my case manager. But now since we started working together again (last fall) she is different... I think because she had kids she changed some... I dont know...

I dont know...so tomorrow is Kaylas dance recital... i am going to try to tape it... maybe i can put it on the computer somehow... we will see... Alright this is it for tonight... love you guys