Hey... weight was up from the bad purge yesterday... 153.6 only about 1.5 pounds... not as bad as i thought it would be... but still not good...

for like the last week i have been having trouble purging... something is off... i dont know... maybe it is my body's way of telling me to stop... haha yeah probably

I walked today... my appointment was cancelled... my worker couldn't make it... figures... I have therapy tomorrow... early... uggg have to be there at 9...

I guess i will talk to her about what i should do now... the nutritionist didn't work out... gonna bring my food journal not sure if I am going to share it but i will tell her about the amount of purging...  im not mentioning the lax because it isnt really that big of a problem... i have been very bad with lax before... right now i have only used it like 3-4 times in a month or two... not great but not bad.

i am really tired so this is going to be it... i went to work for my friend didnt get home till after 9... i did 9 miles today... <3 i will write tomorrow