uggg hey im just saying hi... long day... had my adoptive mothers birthday party/picnic today went alright... i had to purge there thankfully it was not hard or anything... just had to make sure no one knew...

so then at the picnic thing my sister mandy was there with pierce (the baby) and something was different with her today, normally she doesn't come to things that my other sister Renee is at... my mom usually doesn't invite them both. she didn't this time my dad did.

Mandy let me hold pierce and i gave him a little of his food, and swung on a swing with him on my lap. it was nice. He is so big too... i mean yeah he has always been big but being able to hold him a little you know you really feel how big he is... i would say he is at least 25 pounds... he is almost 9 months old... he wears 18 month old clothes. Top 100 percentile for his height and weight...

Nick and Kayla were there too... Kayla is such a little 'want to be mommy' she was like glued to pierce it was cute... kept asking to hold him and just being very motherly it was so adorable.

I ended up eating and purging again my sister wanted to go out to eat later... we had chinese... me chicken, my favorite sweet and sour chicken...

Purged as soon as I got home.... had 25 minutes with the chinese in me... felt like i was going to die or burst.

alright i gotta go... i need sleep lol
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