Hey... Yeah Laila he better get jail time. Thank you love

hmm weight 125.4, wow I am not complaining but I am getting concerned that losing this fast is going to gain it right back. I am not doing anything different either. But I like the weight going down.

my heart rate has been high again today... I had to walk to therapy and my heart rate got up to 198, I just wanted to sit down in the middle of the sidewalk. But I didnt. Earlier i figured out that I had had my hr monitor on for 2 hours 55 minutes and for 2 hours and 5 minutes my heart rate was in the above zone (above 124).
Heck I am sitting on the couch and my heart rate is around 110-115.
I am drinking a lot of water, I ate 4 spoons of applesauce and 2 almonds before walking to therapy. And when I got home I had a rice cake with pb and brown sugar splenda.

Therapy was alright... frustrating, confusing... she asked about my weight, I couldnt tell her I lost more than 6 pounds this week, so I said 3 pounds, she thinks I am 139. She thinks I had 2 days without binging last week. I wish it were true but I failed last week, bp'd everyday.

she said I need to think about what I want... I told her I want/need to lose about 15-18 more pounds (she thinks to 120). she said I cant. I will try to maintain at that weight. She said I wont be able to. But I can give myself permission to eat then. She said I will just binge. ugg

I dont know... I just know I need to lose

On the plus side my BMI is below 17.5 (barely though)

I am getting money from my friend today because I am going to work for her thursday. I am walking to the school (where she works) if the rain holds off.

Damn my butt has been hurting my couch sucks,
I am thinking about what to buy... I am trying to think logically...
bread, milk, lunchmeat, eggs
maybe pasta, potatoes, pizza,

ohh monday measurements:
Hip: 33.25 (34)
LR Hip: 30 (31)
Waist: 23.5
Breast: 29.5
Neck: 11.5
R Thigh: 17.5
L Thigh: 17
RU Arm: 8.5
LU Arm: 8.5 (8.75)
R Wrist: 5.25
L Wrist: 5.25
R Calf: 12
L Calf: 12

Not much change, 2 inches difference, weight loss since last monday: 6.4 lbs
I am gladly surprised.

ohh and I didnt get my period again... even on the pill.