Alright the post I promised...
Damage weight wise- BAD
today I was 129.2

Last night after binging my weight was 139.8 SO CLOSE TO 140! FREAK OUT!!!
After purging 129.6

I just bp'd today- pre purge 134.0, post purge 127.6 (down from this morning, lax are working too)
Yeah I took lax last night 2 doses, I was not able to purge throughly while away.

Okay about my trip:
Tuesday I left at 8:30am on the bus... got down to my moms about 4 pm. I had a layover in buffalo and another in erie. I was going to bp in erie since I was going to be there for more than 2 hours. Only to find out when I got to erie that they didnt have any restaurants or food things in the bus terminal. They had 1 snack vending machine and a soda machine. I got like 4 things from the snack machine, i ate and purged them. It was not satisfying.

The first night down there I ate 1 piece of tilapia fish with 1/2 cup of rice and a special k fruit crisp. It was about 400 cals MAX. I kept it in. Wednesday I was 124.8, I gained with what I ate.

Wednesday I felt like I was going crazy. I wanted to eat so bad. I wanted to binge. and purge, I wanted to lose weight. but I REALLY JUST WANTED TO EAT
Wednesday evening my mom and I went to my nieces birthday party. We got there early and helped set up and stuff... We had food there, bar-b-que chicken, hot dogs and hamburgers, fruit salad, coleslaw, watermelon, chips, cake, ice cream. Yeah I ate... I ate like normal-ish, but then ended up eating a lot, i just kept eating little bits. I purged there. And then continued to eat planning on purging when we got back to my moms. It was a bit later but I still purged at my moms.

my mom makes popcorn almost every night, she does not have a microwave so she makes it on the stove, I was astonished it tasted better than microwave popcorn! I had some popcorn and went to bed. My mom does not put anything besides a little salt on the popcorn. So pretty healthy.

Thursday, weight was 126.something... GROSS my mom and I went out to walmart... Riding the city buses is crazy. AND I am seriously too fat to ride them. the seats are SO HARD, it hurt my butt bones so bad, I feel like I have bruises there. I am so FAT/HEAVY that it hurts to sit on a lot of surfaces. (I know like if I told my sister that she would say i need fat on my butt for it to not hurt, well I NEED to weigh less for it to not hurt so much)
I bought my mom lunch at walmart (they had a mcdonalds inside it)
I bought a few things to eat when I had my 3 and a half hour layover in erie on the way home on friday. Sandwich meat, a pack of flat bread sandwich rolls, a bag of chips.

We made dinner when we got back to my moms, we had a seafood meal, some shrimp, scallops, and fish (she had flounder, i had tilapia), and some mashed sweet potatoes, and strawberries. I purged when I went to take a shower. my weight was 129.6 after purging. We had popcorn again.

I ate breakfast on friday morning... egg whites, 3 bagel thins, and a couple strawberries. My mom and I left for the bus, I got on the greyhound bus to leave at 10 am... I got to erie at 12:30... started eating and ended up purging there. Got on the bus again at 3:20, my butt and back bones were hurting a lot, like the area some people have back dimples, the bones there were hurting. I got to buffalo about 5 pm, ate a hamburger there and 2 things from a snack machine. Got on the bus again and got back to batavia at almost 7pm. my sister picked me up, and i went to her house to wait for my adoptive mom to pick me up to take me home. My adoptive mom took me to Wendys for a dinner, she hadnt eaten in a few hours and I said I hadnt eaten since lunch time in erie and that I just had a sandwich. I finally got home at almost 10pm, I immediately made some rice to eat so I could purge all that I eaten recently (the wendys meal)

I hope I can lose the rest of this weight quickly.  Get back to at least 122 soon... then lower

I feel like a fricken fat blob

I was going to walk down to the strawberry festival that is going on where I live, I havnt been to it in a couple years but I woke up with a headache and decided to just go to the store and get milk... So I can bp on some foods that take milk to make them... I had $12 for the rest of the month, and hopefully I can work for my friend and earn $30 sometime soon... The month is not even half over...

The visit with my mom was really nice, meeting my niece and nephew and sister in law was nice. I was nervous about that but it was okay. I got a few pictures, I have to put them on the computer later... I am thinking about going to lay down, my head is still hurting and I am exhausted still.

So everything is alright besides my weight... im glad things went as well as they did. I keep telling myself that if I didnt purge what I did I would have gained even more so I need to be glad.

ehhh okay I may be back to post later...