well i ordered delivery food, really shouldnt have but oh well too late... already ate and purged it
was bad though... not smart
i ate a sandwich before the food got here
kaiser roll, some ready cooked bacon, cheese and miracle whip
then the take out
1 large pizza
1 doz. mild chicken wings
5 mozzarella sticks
a large sub: ham, turkey, provolone, lettuce and tomato

I was so FULL I had to force the last of the sub down, i wanted to eat it but it was so painful to eat it. But I forced it, i got a 2 liter of soda with the take out but I stopped drinking soda a while ago again and it was hard to drink it while eating... so I only managed about 1/2 of it. but DIDNT drink anything else MISTAKE!!!!

crap i know, i know that is stupid! but i couldnt force any more liquid down if i wanted to. While purging I had to drink like 3 swallows to get the sub softer to get it up. so crappy.,..

I scared myself, i got a little blood, i still cant figure out where it came from. it showed up like 1/3 of the way through purging but by the time I was done there was no more blood. It wasn't very much so it might have been a scratch but i dont think so because the chicken wings were spicy and the spice hurts open wounds (i have a cut on my thumb). ehh oh well
it was a good purge though in the end, a less weight than my last bp, 125.4

but can you believe i just want to eat more... i dont want to bp i just want to eat, i want to enjoy it too, but that doesnt happen anymore, no matter how much i eat, i think it will be different if i eat 'this' but its not... i dont enjoy it I just WANT to eat so bad

Im sorry I dont know how to put that in better words... i dont know if I am making myself clear or even understandable... im confused on how to say it, it seems simple, i bp so i do eat so why do I want to eat so bad, i let myself eat. I cant keep it. That is just not allowed.