hey weight is still fluctuating around 125

had 1 bp today... but the day is not over

i feel like a fat ass... i dont know how i am gonna hold it together eating wise when I go see my mom. I was going to bring a few food items and just eat them, not bp... i dont want to do that around her. but i dont know if i can eat and not purge and I know I dont really have the strength to not eat period. I am taking my scale with me so I can keep an eye on my weight. I am taking my laptop too I dont know if I will have internet access though... I will not have anyone if I cant get online.

my leg muscles are hurting crazy, not like before but like I had some massive workout. my butt muscles too. Laying on my side in bed the muscles just hurt, it wakes me up at night if I roll on my side... I am so confused. I am not working out at all, i have not walked anywhere in a couple days... like when your muscles are so sore just touching them, trying to massage them hurts. its not my calves though just my thighs/back of thighs and butt

I feel like a massive lazy piece of crap...

im hungry

i need to stop eating i feel like a blimp

uggg sorry im such a complainer today...