hey... after almost 2 weeks of my weight staying about 125 I was down this morning
123.6 Yay!

I have therapy tomorrow, who knows what she is going to say about my weight... I will only tell her I lost about a pound no matter what tomorrows weight it (unless it is up, then I will say less)

I told my mom I was nervous about eating down there, she said I didnt need to be. I said that I want to eat 'normal' when im down there but I am not sure I can. She told me to be me, i told her I didnt want to worry or upset her. She said 'things are how they are, i cant change them' (she has gotten into the mindset of leaving things to god since all her medical stuff started happening) So I am glad I told her, I still dont know what I am going to do down there. I am planning on bringing some frozen tilapia, egg whites, and a few servings of white rice (im gonna measure it out before and only take like 3-4 servings, so i cant technically cant over eat)? I dont know...

I need to pack...

My mom told me we will be going to see my brothers kids, my brother left I guess, i dont know much. It is my nieces birthday wednesday. I think she will be 6. I have never met her, or her brother (he is younger). I havnt met their mom either. If things are as they are right now I wont have to see my brother. I definitely dont want to deal with him or his crap. I bought my niece a doll and a little purse with bracelets and necklaces.
I will take pictures.

alright i gotta wrap this up i have to be up early tomorrow... I gotta do measurements in the morning too, didnt do them last week because I was feeling really fat.