Hey... ugg weight 119.6 up blahhh but I can feel crap in me, i need to poo took 1 lax last night still waiting for it to work...

So I got woke up today by a phone call from my psychiatrist office... uggg My therapist sent her a letter (along with sending one to my dr) and well my psychiatrist wants to see me this coming week... Great

I was not supposed to see her till the 12th... I dont think she can do anything besides like talk... I dont know... im not as sick as I was the last time I was this weight. I was suicidal at that time and I didnt care if my ed killed me. I do care now, I guess not enough to stop though right now. But I dont know, this is a different psychiatrist than I was seeing back then.

I dont know, i am supposed to see her tuesday, if i can find a ride... i may not be able to though... but she will call people if I dont try.

Alright im just ending a bp and have to go purge... write more later