Hey... The pretesting went alright, my labs are a little off though, that is why she thinks I am so tired.
told me to drink more and try to eat a little more but she said it is hard to get all the protein you need on a low fat/ no fat diet.

I have to keep a close eye on myself though... make sure I don't develop a fever or anything... my immune system is in overdrive... has been working really hard... the extent of my infection was pretty bad she said.

I better not get sick before this surgery because they will have to postpone it.

I hope you guys are doing alright love yous ~Kristi

hey loves,
not much going on today... I have my pretesting at the hospital tomorrow morning...

I think wednesday night my nephew is gonna come over... spend the night, hang out thursday... maybe bike ride or something.

I am really tired... I can't believe how insanely tired I am... Ridiculus

I thought I would say hi, very short though... I am so very tired
I came home today... spent most of the day with Kayla... I am heading off to bed in a few minutes... ready to pass out now.

I ate and purged 1 time today... not horrible but not great...
Thinking of you guys <3 <3

hey loves, thanks for the comments Laila... love you...

I found out the date for my surgery... July 6th... A little nervous but I know it is needed.

I am still at my sisters... going home in the morning.
I guess that is it... sorry so short

I took a few pictures today... I had taken some right before I got my hair cut so here are the before and after.
The appointment went alright today... I have to call the hospital tomorrow afternoon and see when they are going to do the surgery... about 2 weeks I believe it will be.

Alright here are the picture!
Tiger first...

Now say it! I know I am thinking it... He is such a pretty boy!

 a before shot

yet another...

So there they are ... not horrible... I can't believe that I almost like the last two... hmmm weird

~Kristi

=^..^=

hey... im as fat as a cow or a house... blah...  so fat
I go to the doctor tomorrow... see about if I  need the surgery and when.

I want to purge... I should but i shouldnt... i am trying to be good... but i feel full.... Blah

Alright i just wanted to say hi... and I guess BLAH... I will write about the appointment tomorrow
<3

I am feeling so very fat.... I have been trying to purge less... I had gone 2 days without purging, purged once today but still ate and kept some food...
my belly feels like a big bloated whale or something... just disgusting... I was up to 156 today, that is why I chose to purge... 2 days no purging and my weight goes up 4 pounds.

I have been eating some turkey lunchmeat, bread, and yogurt... My case manager thankfully is going to get me a few things from the store tomorrow because I am out of almost all my 'low fat' foods that I am supposed to be eating.

I need to start keeping track in my journal... I kinda fell off the wagon and don't know where my journal is... uggg
If I can start with my journal and slow with the purging that would be really good.
Alright talk tomorrow
Luv ya

hey, just thought i would stop by... I was over at my sisters... thursday night i kinda freaked out some... couldn't calm myself... couldn't stop crying... i needed to be around people... my thoughts were not good...

I ended up going over to my sisters... after I had taken a bit of meds (not to hurt but to help me sleep, and not an overdose) but I couldn't calm myself and I took a couple pills to calm me.

my sister sent my niece over to pick me up, didn't tell me she was coming but it ended ok.

my niece is being a b*tch though... I am sorry I was in the hospital and i had to buy new food because my foods spoiled... I could have given you the $20 but that means I would be going without food and I needed special foods because I now cannot eat all that is still good because my gallbladder is messed up.

Arrggg she is so aggravating... she doesn't even pay the bill, my sister has been, she understands, I will pay it on the 1st, i was also expecting a little more income but that didn't come through... I am sorry. ugggg

If I actually used the phone as much as I pay her, I wouldn't complain as much but seriously I pay the same amount as my nephew and I can't use the internet or facebook or any mobile stuff on it. it is ridiculus. Texting and sometimes calling... but calling people i have to be careful.

ugg oh well

my weight is gross... i put on like 1 pound since getting out of the hospital... disgusting.
my energy is getting back to normal... i have yet to really go walk yet though... i have done a little when going to the pharmacy or the store... but no more than 4 miles.... at a time... blah. i am so fat.

alright this is just a big blob of blah sorry.... im tired and ornery can't really figure out my mood... its just messed luv ya girls

hey girls
psych appointment went alright... still tired as all get out...
Did some dishes... picked up a little more
went to the store and bought a couple things...
ate and purged 3 times...
ready for bed now...
trying to keep in some food that is low fat... I did some mahi mahi fish today grilled it... was a little overdone but it was okay.
i guess that is all... i need sleep... <3

By the way Thank you Laila! I love you too!


Love you Shannon!

hey just thought i would say hi... i am feeling better... still so very tired though... I think unusually tired.
I slept a lot today... did a couple dishes, took a shower... and slept... am ready to go to bed now. I have a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow.
I made the appointment with the surgeon, next thursday, lets see how that goes... hopefully I wont have to wait more than a month for the surgery. my fear of the pain coming back is big. It doesnt help that I have to change my eating.... that feels impossible... I am supposed to have a 'no fat' diet... I think I can do that a little... but I have already eaten and purged 3 times since being home

I had a wonderful cuddlefest with Tiger lol

My fears for weightgain in the hospital were mostly not needed... I was 150 before the whole thing started and today I was 152.6 (but the day I went into the hospital I was 161)

I guess this is it because I am so beat I cant think... loves!

Hey good news, I may be able to go home tuesday! Yay I can see my baby boy. I miss him so much.

I had to have another magnesium treatment... when my magnesium drops it affects my heart rhythm... thats what they think all this feelings have been with my heart.

I got the heart monitor off today... another step in the right direction, still have the iv site for the antibiotics.

I had full liquids today- which means; milk, cream soups, sherbet and pudding. All of them were kinda nasty but hey it was food. I ate most of it.

Tomorrow I maybe getting regular food but low fat... thats not a problem.

I can't believe I am thinking about food to eat and purge... I shouldn't be... but all I can think about is eating. And if I binge I will have to purge and right now I think if I am around any amount of food by myself I will binge.

I am scared what the scale will say... I am disgusting. I see the difference from the fluids they gave me... and the shots in the arm muscles made my upper arms swollen... my upper left arm is almost double its size. Disgusting.
Alright thats it. luv

hey girls small update, Shannon you already know most of this...
 I am in the hospital, I have a bad infection in my gallbladder... gallstones and had what is called an illius (intestines slow down to not moving anything)

All this started last wednesday (the 2nd) I think I ate something that triggered this severe attack... but the doctors say I have likely had some of the problems for awhile just didn't know it was my gallbladder.
I was in the Emergency room last friday down in corning (visiting family friends) they are the ones who said my gallbladder was enlarged and inflamed. The gave me pain medicine and told me to follow up at home.
On sunday the pain was very different and my stomach had swelled a lot (when walking into the er that night someone asked if i were pregnant) So yeah when we got back up home i had fell asleep a little and was freezing and sweating, nauseous  My sister took me to the emergency room again...
It was pretty pointless to go though they gave me some pain medicine and told me i was not sick enough for them to call in the surgical doctor. IF I started vomiting or got a high fever, THEN I would be sick enough.

The sent me home... Monday I had a doctors appointment, my doctor wanted me to get an ultrasound.... she scheduled it for tuesday. Monday night was really hard I barely slept. so much pain and muscles twitching.

Tuesday, the worst, I got up and took my meds was already in a LOT of pain but sat down at the computer and tried to work on it but I just started crying.... I couldn't do anything... I called my sister after taking a pain pill, asked her if I could come to her work, i didn't want to be alone. the pain was scaring me. While waiting for her to send a ride to come get me I started getting sick... not by my hands... That is a bad sign,

I got taken to the er tuesday afternoon, they stabilized my pain and sent me to get the ultrasound and that showed the gallstones and other effects of the infection.

I had a special test wednesday and thursday the doctors told me I definitely had a bad infection and I should have come in sooner but it is too late now to do a surgery, i have to wait 4-6 weeks... my belly is too 'hot' (another word for infected)

I was so pissed when they told me i should have come in sooner.... I DID! you guys just sent me home!

Uggg so things a little better... pain is getting better... but I have just been moved to a different floor in the hospital because they want to monitor my heart. The doctor said it was going to fast. Probably just stress

Alright i may write more later... i can't get on facebook or play with my pets on here the hospital blocks certain sites that the wireless carrier offers.

Ohh and one possible good thing,  i may be losing weight? not being allowed to eat... but I am not walking or anything either though... alright talk later

i am sitting here crying... i dont know what to do. my stomach is hurting really bad, like someone shoved a 5 inch diameter pole through it... right from the front of me to the back...
I havent had a lot of problems with my acid reflux in a while and i was rather stressed today... and then on top of that I made fresh fish today... I dont know if I cooked it right.... i called my sister she said drink some milk.I dont have any! I just want to sleep... i can't fall alseep because of the pain. I took an extra acid reflux pill and some karafate (I used when i had gastric bleeding) nothing is helping.... i am so tired.... now mad... this has been a terrific Day!

Ohh my gosh i dont know what to do... there is really nothing i can do but wither around in agony... if it is from not cooking the fish right or stress there is nothing that can be done.... just have to wait it out.
Since I dont have milk i tried a little yogurt but that hasn't done anything... I just want to yell and cry my self to sleep.. with out the pain.
sorry i had to write or something... going over it in my head is pointless and my sister was no help.