hey... weight today 137.0 thank goodness, i thought it would be up because I bp'd last night and my night weight was 141... I ate 5 fricken bags of popcorn... it was light popcorn so it was only 1000 calories lol... I purged it but i still had extra weight on me.

I took and extra sleeping pill last night... i was tired of just laying in bed... Wow I forget how the sleeping pill effects me when I take 2... I felt like I was drunk when I got up to go to the bathroom at 5.

im hungry... i just bp'd too.... How the heck do I stop bping? I cant just eat. I will gain weight... and Im not strong enough to not eat. I generally gain if I dont bp as well. Just a day of restricting I wont lose weight...

I need to be strong like some of you that can restrict and plan your bps...

I just dont know how to go without food. If I allow myself like 200 calories and not purge? But just eating leads to binges for me... uggg i dont know

I bp'd a little while ago...

2 dill pickle spears
2 tuna melt sandwiches- 4 piece wheat bread, 1 can tuna, 4 slices cheese, miracle whip light
1 can of tuna with miracle whip light
32 oz water
6 chicken patties
1/2 bag french fries
ketchup
30 oz water
32 oz water with purging (rinsing) Pre purge-146.8 post purge137.6


I wonder how much my stomach can actually hold? I thought I would actually try to figure it out... drink lots and lots of water till I feel full? Measure it? Ehhh i dont know... i guess it doesnt really matter.

ugg i guess thats it for now