weight 135.4
I know I weigh in the 130s but whenever I weigh myself I think in my head 155? And I really think I am that heavy but I DO know how to read numbers and I KNOW it says 135... but I still think I am like 20 pounds heavier. Heck sometimes I think I see 185... 135 is not real to me... but if it were anything higher I think I would freak.

It was nice today... 65-70 degrees but very windy... I sat outside for a little while... a couple people in the complex kept coming to talk to me... UGGG Iritating. I DONT LIKE TALKING TO PEOPLE

going with my parents over to my other sister Mandys house tomorrow... a dinner.... fun... Gonna have to purge there because we will be there quite awhile... uggg I KNOW if I dont eat a fuss will be made, and I dont think I could stop myself from eating anyway... I JUST CANT BINGE... I dont think I will... its not like me to binge in front of people.

im gonna go get ready for bed... its calling my name
ohh and 2 bps today... end weight 136.0... so It might be down tomorrow... but then tomorrow might make me gain.

I know my goal this month was to lose 7 pounds, I thought I would drop it from 10 pounds because my weightloss is going to be harder the lower it gets. Well  If I get to 134.? by the 26th I will have lost 10 pounds this month anyway :)

alright night
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