OMG I just got offline from talking with Shannon, get ready for bed and purge... just had eaten 4 hot pockets, a bag of salad, a loaf of italian bread with butter, and a package of cookies (20+) I had also down my normal bottle of water, 1/2 bottle powerade zero, and because of the loaf of italian bread I got another bottle of water (1 litre size). I felt like after binge full... nothing different. When I stood up and picked up my plate, i felt like this pop, and i got a sharp pain where my stomach is, I couldnt stand up straight, and im like damn it did i pull a muscle or is all the food ripping out of my stomach. I got to the bathroom and my heart rate was 160, (high for walking to the bathroom)
I couldnt use my stomach muscles to purge because it felt like when i tightened them the pain was worse, so I stood bent over for a minutes, trying to swallow a little air to force some stuff down (my throat because im bent over) swallowing the air was hard but i managed enough to start bringing up some of the liquids. As the pressure released from my stomach I was like okay im gonna use my hand, i gotta get it out of me... All I could think was Im gonna see a ton of red... if my stomach is ripping. Thankfully when I use my hand it is not so hard on my stomach muscles. Once I got 80%ish out I was okay, I could stand up sorta straight, drink more water...
I finished purging, im okay... if i press on my stomach where the pain was its still there so I think I pulled a muscle.
Man Shannon, we were talking about esophageal ruptures not that long ago... uggg scary

I have been having some pain in the left lower rib/upper stomach area... maybe its muscular and this just made it worse

I NEED not to eat to when I feel like that, i cant risk that happening again... i thought, if i could just get all this food up and make sure im not bleeding, Really what would I have done if I started vomiting a lot of blood? try to make sure I got all the food up, try to call my sister or dad... but then i would have to explain how it happened.... yeah... or just call for help and dont tell anyone... ehhh im putting too much thought into it

But I really have never thought anything SERIOUS would happen to me, like lifethreatening serious, yeah i have dealt with my share of stomach problems but I am still here... lab works are usually pretty good...
see im fine
everything is okay