ok quick post...

weight today 135.8 ugg okay...

had dr appointment... went okay... layered 8 pounds of clothes and 2 bottles of powerade zero.
Dr. didnt say much about my weight thank goodness
but also doesnt have any answers about my leg pains except now maybe my eating/purging/not keeping food in

my new friend came over for a little while... watched some more of a show called 'the invisible man' me crochet'd she knitted

my mom called about 3:30 (while friend still here) and said my dad would be over to pick me up if I can help her with her computer transfering pictures. My dad got to my place while my mom was telling me he was coming (so NO NOTICE)

had to hurry and say goodbye to louisa and then grab a few things to go to my parents...

helped my mom on the computer... (their computer SUCKS, so SLOW) had dinner there, helped my mom a little more then my dad brought me home.

I ate for dinner there, 5 fish sticks, 2 pierogies, 1/4 cup mixed veg.
As soon as I got home I started cooking... my binge...
1 bunch of asparagus, 3/4 loaf of bread, 3 slices turkey, 3 slices ham, 2 slices cheese, butter with the bread, 1/2 large bag of salad, salad dressing, 3 packs of ramen
Pre-purge 147.8, post purge 137.0

I swear it was so painful at the end of the binge... I stand in the bathroom trying/getting ready to purge and I cant purge hard when I am that full... I have to sort of stand bent over trying to swallow air... and burp food till there is a little room for me to actually purge hard otherwise it HURTS way too much... It is then and only then do I think of the damage or danger i am putting myself into

alright im really tired, my legs are hurting really bad... im gonna pretty much go pass out...
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