well it seems my body decided to play an april fools joke, I slept like maybe 2 hours last night... i couldnt shut my brain off after I woke up at 3... so when i weighed myself this morning, I was freaked out... I didnt lose my normal weight overnight. uggg I was the exact same as I was when I went to bed. NOW that is ridiculous! I better sleep tonight and my weight better be back where its supposed to be tomorrow!

I cant even post my weight it is disgusting

I had 2 bps today... i wanna try not to have another but having food is so hard to resist
BP1
1 snack size chips
24 oz root beer (not diet)
2 orders of sweet and sour chicken, 1 order white rice
tea, raspberry lemonade

BP2
1 turkey/provolone/lettuce/tomato 12 in sub
1 meatball/pepperoni 12 in sub
3 cookies, 2 peanut butter, 1 raspberry cheesecake (YUM)
1 pound cake thing, but blueberry (store didnt have my blueberry muffins)
water

and with all the walking im sore... :(

My psychiatrist office called me today, she wants me to stop my Luvox (helps with ocd thoughts), she was decreasing it when i saw her on tuesday but she talked to another dr and she wants me off it. I have a lot of unexplained bruising on my legs, the pharmacist says it might help my leg pains. My psych is having me start a new med, cymbalta, never been on that before... I have to research it, the little that i was able to read so far was can cause loss of appetite :)  really thats all I read I made sure it didnt say weight gain. I am going to research some more though. I dont know i hope it helps with the leg pains

I really want to eat

alright i probably could write more but its 8:30 so this will be it.